This past year has been one of the most challenging—and most meaningful—seasons of our life. As a musician, my world has always revolved around rhythm, creativity, and performance. But when my wife began her treatment and had to stay home this past year, the tempo of our lives changed completely. Suddenly, the stage lights dimmed, and the spotlight shifted to something far more important: our love, care, partnership and survival.
Finding a New Rhythm
Balancing music and marriage has always been easy for me, but during this time has been both humbling and transformative. My days now begin with making breakfast, checking medication schedule, and preparing for the day ahead. Between her virtual meetings and my music projects, I find myself folding laundry, cleaning the kitchen, and making sure the house feels peaceful and comfortable for our journey and her recovery.

At first it can be overwhelming. The constant juggling between creative work and caregiving can leave one exhausted. There were moments when I felt torn—wanting to pour my energy into my music while knowing that my heart needed to be fully present at home. But over time, I began to see that this new rhythm wasn’t a disruption; it was a different kind of harmony.
My wife is everything to me. The Music and the Art I create is a reflection of our life and the world around us.
Antonio Jackson
The Everyday Acts of Love
Cooking has become one of our shared joys. I’ve learned to experiment with new recipes, finding ways to make healthy meals that bring her comfort and strength. We laugh (after the fact) when her appetite changes and I have to go out and find something quick even after having prepared a meal. These small, ordinary moments have become sacred—proof that love doesn’t always need grand gestures; sometimes it’s found in a bowl of soup or a freshly made bed.
Driving her to and attending all of her appointments has also become a time for connection. We talk, we pray, we sit in silence when words aren’t enough. Those drives remind me that love is not just about being there for the good times—it’s about showing up, consistently, even when the road feels long.
Working from Home Together
Both of us working from home has its challenges. There are days when the house feels small, when deadlines and doctor calls collide, and when fatigue sets in. But there’s also something beautiful about sharing the same space every day. I can hear her laughter from the next room, or she’ll peek in while I’m recording a saxophone line, giving me a smile or a verse from her beautiful voice. Those moments remind me that even in the midst of difficulty, joy finds a way to shine through.

The Rewards of Love and Growth
Through all the challenges—sleepless nights, emotional ups and downs, and the constant balancing act—I’ve discovered a deeper kind of love with my wife and most importantly with God. Our relationship has grown stronger, more patient, and more tender. We’ve learned to pray together, communicate better, to appreciate the quiet moments, and to celebrate small victories together.
This experience has taught me that love is not just a feeling—it’s an action, a daily choice to care, to listen, and to keep showing up. It’s in the music I create, the meals I cook, and the prayers we share.
A Season of Gratitude
As I look back to the earlier days, I realize that this season, though difficult, has been filled with unexpected blessings. It has deepened my faith, strengthened our bond, and reminded me of what truly matters. Music will always be my passion, but love—real, enduring love—is the greatest song I’ll ever play.

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